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Happy Homemaker Monday: September 28, 2026

 I'm late to the party, as usual. It's my "on" Monday, so I'm at an overnight on the farm. Today's been kind of a lot, so this is the first chance I've had to sit down with my computer. Here we go! 

The weather: It's finally starting to feel like Fall here! We've had nighttime temperatures in the low 50's. Daytime temps have been in the 60's and 70's. Bliss!

As I look outside my window: It's nighttime so it's dark, heheh. I can kind of see the shadow of the big willow tree if I look really hard. 

Right now, I am: Typing up this post, looking at the work cat next to me, hoping he doesn't chew up my phone charger. (He has this nasty  habit of eating phone chargers)

Thinking and pondering: That imposter syndrome is a very real thing. I was on the farm today, thinking "What if I have no idea what I'm actually doing?" (like I haven't grown flowers professionally for 11 years)....and then a client came through and gushed about the flowers and I had a wake-up moment of "Of course I know what the heck I'm doing, I've been doing it for years!" But that feeling of "What if I'm just a big ole fake?" is so overwhelming sometimes. 

How I am feeling: Tired and accomplished, which is a great feeling at the end of the day. 

On the breakfast plate: I had coffee and McBreakfast. Not the best, but what are you gonna do?

On the lunch plate: It's my birthday week and one of my friends took me out for muffins and chai and it was amazing. 

On the dinner plate: I made steak fajitas, and rice. 

What I'm wearing: pajamas and a zip-up hoodie. 

On my reading pile: Everything! *cries* Dahlia season doesn't lend itself to reading. 

On my TV this week: "Your turn to kill", rewatching "Mr. Hiiragi's Homeroom", British Baking Show and Hell's Kitchen and the final season of Tokyo Revengers is going to be out this week!

On the menu this week: The aforementioned fajitas, smoked sausage and rotini, and something involving cabbage because I was given a giant cabbage this week. 

Looking around the house: I'm at the farm house tonight, so all I see is my laptop bag and overnight bag and my purse on the dresser here. 

To-do list for the week: I actually wrote it all out yesterday and new stuff is always getting added, but I have to go to the bank, pay some bills, visit all my client gardens, visit a house I'm slowly cleaning, see various friends to celebrate my birthday (it's on Saturday). Whew. 

What I am creating: God-willing, two birthday cards. One belated one for a friend and I'm starting on my best friend's birthday card (her birthday is Christmas Eve, but she's my absolute best friend and I love her and she deserves the best)

From the camera: 

I got my first birthday presents! A friend crocheted me a bookmark and these three little pumpkins for my office. 

Prayers, Devotionals: Please be in prayer for a friend of mine. God knows who she is and what the needs are. 

Have a lovely week ahead! 

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Reclaiming Myself and Where Have I Been?

 I've been here. Except not. In an effort to understand myself better, I've taken some time off of here and most of the socials (except for Instagram because I talk to myself in stories, it's free therapy ha) 

Last week, I had a conversation with a stranger and it showed me that my self esteem is still very much a mess from 6 years ago, which led me to do an emotional deep dive...and think about what's healthy and unhealthy for me. 

What happened over the last 6 years hasn't been my fault: not the pandemic, not the infidelity, not Hurricane Helene, or my mentor's health issues, or my own health issues last Fall. But the way I've reacted to any and all of it has been so unhealthy, and I need to own that. 

So, little by little, I'm doing more of the things that I love and putting order to my emotions, and my house, and my life. It's been a lot of saying "no" to things and people and places. It's been a lot of saying "no" to myself. too. 

Slowly but surely I am getting to where I need to be. I should be back on Sunday with my weekly picture post, and on Monday with Happy Homemaker Monday, and maybe one day a recipe or something fun. It's hard to create when you're living in survival mode, but I'm determined to leave that mode behind. 

I just wanted to tell everybody I'm not pulling a disappearing act. I'm still here. I'm just processing. 

Meanwhile, enjoy these pictures of flowers from the past few weeks. 

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 It's been a weirdly emotionally harrowing week, but I'm doing my best.