I'm late to the party, as usual. It's my "on" Monday, so I'm at an overnight on the farm. Today's been kind of a lot, so this is the first chance I've had to sit down with my computer. Here we go!
The weather: It's finally starting to feel like Fall here! We've had nighttime temperatures in the low 50's. Daytime temps have been in the 60's and 70's. Bliss!
As I look outside my window: It's nighttime so it's dark, heheh. I can kind of see the shadow of the big willow tree if I look really hard.
Right now, I am: Typing up this post, looking at the work cat next to me, hoping he doesn't chew up my phone charger. (He has this nasty habit of eating phone chargers)
Thinking and pondering: That imposter syndrome is a very real thing. I was on the farm today, thinking "What if I have no idea what I'm actually doing?" (like I haven't grown flowers professionally for 11 years)....and then a client came through and gushed about the flowers and I had a wake-up moment of "Of course I know what the heck I'm doing, I've been doing it for years!" But that feeling of "What if I'm just a big ole fake?" is so overwhelming sometimes.
How I am feeling: Tired and accomplished, which is a great feeling at the end of the day.
On the breakfast plate: I had coffee and McBreakfast. Not the best, but what are you gonna do?
On the lunch plate: It's my birthday week and one of my friends took me out for muffins and chai and it was amazing.
On the dinner plate: I made steak fajitas, and rice.
What I'm wearing: pajamas and a zip-up hoodie.
On my reading pile: Everything! *cries* Dahlia season doesn't lend itself to reading.
On my TV this week: "Your turn to kill", rewatching "Mr. Hiiragi's Homeroom", British Baking Show and Hell's Kitchen and the final season of Tokyo Revengers is going to be out this week!
On the menu this week: The aforementioned fajitas, smoked sausage and rotini, and something involving cabbage because I was given a giant cabbage this week.
Looking around the house: I'm at the farm house tonight, so all I see is my laptop bag and overnight bag and my purse on the dresser here.
To-do list for the week: I actually wrote it all out yesterday and new stuff is always getting added, but I have to go to the bank, pay some bills, visit all my client gardens, visit a house I'm slowly cleaning, see various friends to celebrate my birthday (it's on Saturday). Whew.
What I am creating: God-willing, two birthday cards. One belated one for a friend and I'm starting on my best friend's birthday card (her birthday is Christmas Eve, but she's my absolute best friend and I love her and she deserves the best)
From the camera:
I got my first birthday presents! A friend crocheted me a bookmark and these three little pumpkins for my office.
Prayers, Devotionals: Please be in prayer for a friend of mine. God knows who she is and what the needs are.
Have a lovely week ahead!
I felt your comments deeply about imposter syndrome. I feel that way a lot, especially with homeschooling. I ask myself, am I really qualified to teach them? Are they really learning all that they need to know? It's a lot to be wholely responsible for the life of another human lol. I love your crochet gifts! I wish I was crafty like that! I hope you have a great week!
ReplyDeleteHappy Early Birthday! Glad to see you back at HHM. Oh, yes, imposter syndrome, I get that. I had to remind myself just this week that I had years of experience and knew what I was doing. Why do we doubt ourselves? Wish I knew. Have a wonderful week!!
ReplyDeleteHappy early birthday Beautiful! Yay for cooler weather. 🥰 I’m so glad you didn’t let imposter syndrome get to you and you remember how amazing your talents are!! Anyone can look at your insta and be blown away. 😍 Love the gifts your friend made for you. You are such a Gem and I pray abundant blessings for your bday and the whole year through. 🎉🎂💗
ReplyDeleteBetter late than never? I'm barely skidding in before next week's HHM. It has been such a SUPER BUSY week for me and I'm just now FINALLY catching up!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHappy, happy birthday! Hope it was wonderful! You are definitely NOT an impostor! Glad you realized that :)
Hope your week was wonderful. See you again tomorrow.